Do you feel like a failure and you can't get out of it ?

After a while, a long while, you forgot about your goals in life.
you forgot about the stuff you love doing / passionate about
you forgot what it feels like to have that spark of excitement
it used to sparked even just by thinking about it, now.... u forgot what it's like
you forgot what they feel like, to live life filled with hopes and dreams, accomplishments and confidence, to be good in something u love doing.

Instead you live a zombie life
You constantly feel like a failure.
you can't sleep at night,
you don't feel like waking up in the morning because there's nothing to look forward to,
wandering doing nothing during the day, waiting for the golden opportunity to be presented upon you out of thin air, or maybe winning the lottery ;p

The more you let it, the more it ruins your life, the more "lost" you get.
You just forgot what it was like.
You don't know what you want anymore, you are without purpose/mission.
Life becomes boring, you forgot when the last time you laughed so hard, out with good friends, feel good about yourself, like you've accomplished something good in life.

You choose to hide
You sink deeper
You avoid friends,
you're too lazy to do anything,
you're not sure what you want anymore, you kinda want it, but not really coz life seems "fine" right now..... "fine" you say ??
You're in denial

Really ask yourself what you want
because deep down, you know
It's haunting you, but you're afraid to go there
You're afraid you'll fail and embarrass yourself in front of everyone.
You're afraid you're not good enough, you feel you're not ready.
you say to yourself "Now is not the right time" as an excuse
your suppress the fear, the guilt.
So you postpone, you stall, you keep it for later

Days become Months become Years
5 years have passed, 7 years, 10 years have passed
Everyone else has moved on
Friends and Enemies have moved on
Younger siblings and cousins have moved on
They got jobs, good jobs, got promotions, got houses, got married, got kids, more kids.
and you're still standing in that same spot, stagnant
No Life, No Life

Don't you think it's time to change that ?
What's that ?
You started to think maybe you're not meant to shine.
WRONG
You feel it inside you, everyday, every minute.
You know you are meant to shine,
You know you're meant to do something more, something meaningful, something you're passionate about, something wonderful.
It's building inside you but you keep on suppressing it.
Cause of fear ? You're scared ? of what ?
of failure ? of hard work ? of discipline ? you fear that so you choose to live a lifeless life ?

Don't you want to be successful and happy ?
Don't you want to make your parents proud ?
Their life & dreams, not to mention money, spent on giving you the life they never had, but you're accomplished nothing.
So what if you have crappy parents or no parents..... So what ? Don't you wanna prove to the rest of the world that you CAN succeed ? That you have such will power and determination to make your dreams come true ?
Don't you wanna wake up excited everyday ?
How you can't wait for tomorrow because it's always gonna be better ?

So get your lazy ass off that chair.

Your dreams....You've dreamed them too often.
You've imagined winning awards and being interviewed by Oprah way too many times.
Time to get into action.

It's hard to start I know.
Lazy will linger in the beginning, or probably forever
What ? you're gonna let Lazy win ?
Fight it !!!

You'll feel lonely and start to think everyone's having fun and you have to....work ?
You'll keep telling yourself, "one more day of relaxing is ok"
But it's not !!!
Fight it !!!
Stay the course, Focus on your goal.

Know what you want and Go for it !
- Make a daily schedule, Set your priorities right.
- Make lists of things to do to occupy your time so you won't spend useless time watching gossip shows or crappy movies.
Don't spend too much time browsing other successful people's blogs & feeling down, wishing their lives was yours.
Focus on your Life !!
Know that it's never too late, never !
and There's always Hope, always !
Your journey starts now
It's your choice
Have Faith, Work Hard, Have Fun

Stick with your daily schedule
Say NO to friends and families who ask you out for daily casual shopping/lunch/dinner, etc
Focus !
Do a 9 to 5 thing if you're working from home.
Have Discipline
Schedule yourself a leisure time, but when you're working --> Work !!
Don't get distracted.
Work but Have Fun doing it.

You also need that list of useful things to do
Why ?
So you don't end yo doing useless stuff
So you always know what you're supposed to be doing !!
Don't end up wasting time because you think you don't have anything to do today.
There's always something to do.
Learn something, Use your brain.

So.... it's all up to you
Your choice
All you have to do is to Start, Right Now :)
Use your brief time on earth well
Good luck & Have Fun !